mrparachutist:

Filipino Version of “Watermarks” of Mon Umali

entry to “Be Mine” Poetry Reading of CAO, DLSL

and to be my personal reading to “Anima Poetika” CMMA, DLSL

Isang anghel, ilang pulgada sa likuran;

na nama’y isang aliw sa tanaw,

doon sa taluktok ng musmos na burol.

Ito’y panhik ng…

mrparachutist:

The Metaphor of Letting Go

The palm has rusted the steel

as the fingers lit away from the grip;

On that hand flowed the tears

that the face could not speak;

Yet those glare calm the mind

but the chest blows like the faucet

and it gets frozen and cold;

Like…

“Watermarks” (an on the spot brain transcribing poem)

An angel inches from behind;

a virtual vision shrinking on the front;

afar on that innocent hill.

To climb the old dumb brave tree;

enticed by the gloss of a fruit forbidden by the heart

but for the sweet the tongue longs and desires.

But the feelings,

like the bees been whistling and the kite is shaking.

When ‘tis almost a thin touch that divides

before that face twists and turns away.

a forehead kiss on Flickr.

I’m really such a lame. I am breaking my promise, this sudden. I thought I can take it till the end, but it’s just that i am surrendering, giving up, escaping out of LOVE. I am letting you go. T_T so weird I’m doing it now. this moment. But I realized that yes, It’s the perfect feelings, the perfect person, the perfect place…but never the perfect time for me, I guess. I’m so weak. And you are that weakness in me. I just can’t handle the thoughts in me, bothering and cluttering in my head. I just want to make the GREAT ESCAPE, and see if that perfect moment comes for us..to meet again, with the mutual sparks in our eyes, if that destiny is really that one over us. I’m so sorry. maybe, I’m better off this way. Maybe, I just need to fix those broken pieces of me, until I’m ready..to purify my love..AGAIN. i_i

“I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you’ll take me in your arms again.” 

— Nicholas Sparks (Dear John) 

(Source: liviialife)

I’m really such a lame. I am breaking my promise, this sudden. I thought I can take it till the end, but it’s just that i am surrendering, giving up, escaping out of LOVE. I am letting you go. T_T so weird I’m doing it now. this moment. But I realized that yes, It’s the perfect feeling, the perfect person, the perfect place…but never the perfect time for me, I guess. I’m so weak. And you are that weakness in me. I just can’t handle the thoughts in me, bothering and cluttering in my head. I just want to make the GREAT ESCAPE, and see if that perfect moment comes for us..to meet again, with the mutual sparks in our eyes, if that destiny is really that one over us. I’m so sorry. maybe, I’m better off this way. Maybe, I just need to fix those broken pieces of me, until I’m ready..to purify my love..AGAIN. i_i

I have a song for you. This is not to tease you. (devil laugh) but this is  to share your pain.

Now the blog has been unupdated for about weeks. Because this new year i am thinkin of like MOVING ON. I don’t know but I just find myself doing it. It’s like I’m not so aware. Dunno if it’s good or not. And I’ve been feeling it that I am trying to detach my mind from her. But you know these signs keep on coming back. And now that the classes are back, I couldn’t resist again. The feelings are just like butterflies flocking  on  me. The first day of the reopening of classes, I saw her sitting  on the stairs on the way to the CR where I went. I   was like trembling inside. And I couldn’t resist, esp now that she is getting prettier. I missed the feeling. And sometimes when I force myself not to think of her suddenly a Paramore song would play on my music. Really weird. And now, with a NEWS that I don’t if this is a reason for me to celebrate: MIGS BROKE UP WITH HER. but I know deep within me that I’m not happy. I don’t have any reason.. I know I’m just as hurt as her. Knowing she cried for like a week only crushes my heart, too. And what I really don’t like with this fact is that she doesn’t want to lose the grip. She didn’t want to break up. But Migs just want it because he could not commit with the relationship anymore. And so, this is only a PAIN for all of us. ;/

(Source: fortheloveofmusic13, via amosays-deactivated20120101-dea)

hide and seek on Flickr.

All that I considered ever is the spark, the spark of destiny. I know I’m such a fool of following destiny instead of letting it to follow me. I know I’m the loser at the end but I also know that this is the risk of loving. I choose you because I love you. and I feel the spark in you. regardless of the distance, I’m gonna love you, even more than how i will feel when we are closer. I know always it’s in the heart. ;) I’m still happy in this situation. Let me love you, IN SILENCE.

I am about to cry. Now reasons come for me to let go of my grip on you. But I know these are just tests I must pass. I’ve been busy the past week figuring it out. I sought advises and what they all told me is, to LET GO. and just that, but to LET GO OF YOU. I don’t wanna die, swhy I’m not doing that, never. I know my heart will never do it, even part of my mind tells me to go. I really hate myself in the state of that, that I’m questioning myself with my feelings for you. I feel like I’m sinning so greatly.